The Bet

See, I love you so much
That the bet is okay
I would give up all my possesions
To have your kids

The Break Up Pill

A new anti-depressant
Increase self esteem
Decreases the feeling of loneliness
Increases appetite
A touch of pick me up

Sunday Nights and Monday Nights

Most nights of the week I do fine
I don't worry about the Friday nights

Valiant

I spent lots of money putting the universe together
But they were part of the ones who tore it apart.

Flags at the BDO

As Bernard Zuel's article mentions, there were many flag bearers at the BDO, but not I don't agree with Zuel that this was a postive statement of unity. I saw lots of frightening behaviour at the Big Day Out, including flag wearers pushing into an ATM line, and people berating them for being 'unaustralian' and them saying that they were more Australian than any of us. one person was asking people to kiss the flag he was wearing, and people who refused got a punch in the face for their troubles.

My whole like I've looked at US culture's overblown love for a flag, and pinning it to everything they got...and found it funny. Homes that I've known who have Flags on display are declaring their deep ties to that country's core, usually through fighting and the military. It is not a fashion accesory, and you're better than no one for wearing it as a t-shirt. When you start seeing flags, that's when nationalism is getting out of control.

And I'd like to think those kids who were wearing the flag are politically active people and are thinking about what this country CAN BE, COULD BE and SHOULD BE, and not loving what this country HAS BEEN or IS NOW. Henry Rollins was almost the only person to address this onstage. Why do the majority of Australia's young people accept a vision of made by Australia's old people?

Flags

When you start seeing flags
Is when facism's getting bad

Upside of loneliness

The upside of loneliness
Is you realise what you miss
And it makes you go out and be your best

Black Cats

Black cats get out of my way!
Becase today is my day

We are the experts!

Watch me as I talk myself out of this one!
A man walks down the street and he knows nothing!
He is not an expert like me, I know all about it!
Let me explain to you, my brand new theory!
Guarenteed to be correct, cos I am the expert!
Let me spin my cane and raise my top hat!
Come one come all and marvel!
My ability to analyse this situaion accurately!
Guarenteed to be correct, cos I am the expert!

I Want You

Every night when I go off to bed and when I wake up
When I put on my make up
I say a little prayer for you
I want you

Untold

Circumstances collide
Miracles occur
Planets align
That's what I've heard

But we had our chance
And we blew it

O Maria

I don't think I can do this anymore
I look at the hollow faces of men who are my future
And I don't want to be there
O Maria, how did you work this out so quickly

Congratulations, You Won

You were right!
He was wrong
Here's the proof!
Send it on
To your friends
For some fun
Share a laugh
Because you won



The car is gone from your blue skies

Living

...cos I don't ever want to settle down...

I find it hard enough to adjust
And I just want to always be falling in love
I just want to be always tripping all over myself

Day by day

Men who have their lives completly mapped
Make me jealous I don't think like that

I just get by day by day

Make Up My Mind

Sitting on a fence in Neutral Bay
Trying to make up my mind

17 (work in progress)

I was seventeen at the time, and exploding into life.

A few years earlier, I had changed high schools, changed it from the one I shared with my cousin. It seemed like an important, rebellious move at the time, to do what I would later discover was tapped into by Mr Richard Linklater years before me - that "withdrawal in disgust is not the same as apathy." I hated that school, I still do when I pass it, with it's archaic customs and misplaced school pride. Private schools, they are like a cult. Let's call them what they are. Hell, I joined the cadets, everything I stood against, so I could get those great steel capped boots, and really hurt the blind and stupid sheep that were my fellow students. Actually, that's a bit like a joke Dale told me.

Wriggle

Women put some rhythm in your wriggle when you walk!

Good or Bad

I'm falling through the walls into a burning heap
I'm sliding down, my timing's gone, my legs asleep
The wind it blows right in my soul it rains for weeks
Is this a good or bad thing?

This life is long it stretches on the hours drag
I only ever help you when you're feeling bad
Is this a good or bad thing?

I want to dig my nails into the fairest skins

She Is the Sun

You say it's something guys just wouldn't understand
And I really don't mind at all
A bit of mystery is fine

She wears her heart on her singlet top
Dries up sometimes, sometimes it's dropped

Friendship love

Issues that arise from having a fuck buddy

Issues that arise (written in the style of Dave Eggers, who's book I'm currently reading):

1) ISSUE OF WHY DON'T WE JUST GO OUT
Is it because your last two boyfriends had goaties? But we like eachother, we go well together, but let's not tell anyone. Great for the self esteem.

1a) ISSUE OF YOUR FRIENDS ASKING YOU IF YOU ARE GOING OUT
and wanting to reply with, no but we're fucking though.

2) ISSUE OF WANTING TO BE IMPORTANT TO THAT PERSON ANYWAY
So, am I really allowed to ask someone else to go with me to Gershwin in the park? No, cos we'd be fucking and you love Gershwin, even though I want to go with another girl.

3) ISSUE OF LOSING MY FRIEND I TALK ABOUT SEX AND WOMEN WITH
Really. Who do I talk to now.

4) ISSUE OF NOT REALLY WANTING TO HEAR ABOUT HER EXPLOITS WITH BOYS ANYMORE
I mean, look at me, how can she be even looking around with such a fine catch at her fingertips? Not worth thinking about.

5) ISSUE OF EXPLAINING ALL THIS TO PEOPLE CLOSE FRIENDS ALSO IN THE CIRCLE
Some people I can't lie to.

6) ISSUE OF FALLING BACK ON THE EASY ROOT AND LEADING TO NOT MEATING PEOPLE
If you know you're going to meet up with someone at 1, spending the hours of 8-12:59 talking to someone new and pretty is diminished. Horrible, yes? But if it's any other time of day. But let's face it, it's friday, you're tipsy, you're pretty, work has been shit, I want to root. So I'm sorry if that sounds crass and hey if I get nowhere (most nights) fine, but if I have someone I can fall back on...

7) ISSUE OF YOU ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP ANYWAY, REALLY
You need to keep food in your fridge they like, express more interests in their lives, etc etc...you basically have to make sure you get along all the time. Yet be casual. Cos you're not that emotionally invested to be fighting BUT YOU ARE because you share emotional space.

8) ISSUE OF ME OVER THINKING AND FEELING UNCOMFORTABLE IN MOST SITUATIONS INVOLVING WOMEN ANYWAY
Really. It's best if we don't talk.

Love

Isn't it terrible that when you feel bad
Is the only time we make you feel good?

Dear PHG, Jan 2006

The saga continues...

Dear PHG

Just when I think I know where I stand with you, I don't anymore. Which is kind of nice. I don't know what to do with the rest of that garlic but the kitchen smells nice, aroma-ry, and I delayed doing the dishes for the rest of the day cos the pretty smell on the dirty pots and pans reminded me of you long after you left.

I did end up doing the dishes last night around midnight, on the phone to a friend in the UK telling her all about another girl, and forgetting about you, as I was scrubbing down food crap on the plates. Yes the symbolism is deliberate there.

Bill.

Book of rules

What can I say
That can make this go away
Make this day erase
And make everything ok

What can I do?
Is there a book of rules
That might leave a clue
To returning the sky to blue

I'll Turn Off Your Mind (Hopeless Princes)

The night is not young anymore
You're still drunk but not like before
And all your friends just serve to make you bored
But if you want
You can knock on my door

On any night, at anytime
But I can't promise I'll untie
Any knots that are caught inside
But if you like
I'll turn off your mind

Throwing kisses
At hopless princes
Who never listen
To whispered wishes
I'm not saying
I'm any different
I'm always distant
I keep my secrets
But no more talking
No more talking.

Games and games and games and games

We've been careful with the roll of the dice
Avoiding all snakes, one step at a time
What topic would you like to settle for?
Something safe like arts and literature?

I feel like Monopoly car I'm dying to race
But my shakey Operation hand might give it all away
It could all collapse like I'm the mouse
Is it your turn or mine to see how this will turn out?

Checking the score, checking the time, the rules
Checking the pieces left, checking your moves
That word was impressive you score high
You've almost masterminded what I'm trying to hide

So what are we going to do with this Knight?
Our queens are gone, the endgame's nigh
I think I can Guess Who you are in actual fact
I concede let's leave this game and not look back

Hate your friends

This is the last time you get to say that to me

I must be over you

I must be over you
Like a young girl over blue
Like Levon over boos
Like detectives over clues
Like chord change over used

Makin' Mistakes

You know the song that's playing on my mind
You know the thoughts that I've been trying to hide
I know you think you're in love with another guy
But I'm going to make you see otherwise

Joe Strummer

Everybody wants to play
But nobody has anything good to say